am lost
with every single meaning of this word
is it possable to be in love with some 1
and have a MADLY crush in some 1 else ?
i dont know exactly what i feel
all what i know
that this girl give me fever in her presence
and with her i feel am some 1 else
she talks to my head
SHE LET ME THINK !
i never met some 1 who provoke my internal insticts
my deep desire
things that is deeply buired in my subconsiouce.
things that am ashamed of
things that i want to do but always something stop me form doing it.
she let me question things i always take them as (moslmat)
every time i talk to her , i look at things in a different aspect
its not like she changes my views, but simply... she let me THINK.
and then, i have to give it all up !
not only ihad to do that ... but i have to do it as if it was MY OWN DECISION.
deep inside me i know that it is right to do it... i mean let her go, although she seems that she have started to like me too alot, but we got to do what we HAVE to do not what we WANT to do.
am planning to back off (tdrejyan)
imean iwill start cutting off some of our phone calls, msgs, then till this ends up.
i always thought it will be easy .. but giving the fact that today she told me she can't wait for finals to finish so we can chat more..... :( her sentence broke my heart.i will loose a friendship... and propaply break a heart :(
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